It's all in my head

I want a love like, me thinking of you thinking of me, thinking of you type love, or me telling my friends more then I've ever admitted to myself about how I feel about you type love, or hating how jealous you are but loving how much you want me all to yourself type love, or seeing how your first name just sound so good next to my last name. I wanted to see how far I could go without calling you and I barley made it out of my garage.

I want a love that makes me wait until she falls asleep and then wonder if she's dreaming about us being in love, type love, or who loves the other more, or what she's doing at this exact moment, or slow dancing in the middle of our apartment to the music of our hearts, closing my eyes and imagining how love could hurt so much when she's not there, shit, I know not where this love is headed type love.

Check this, I want to post those little posted notes all around the house, so she doesn't forget how much I love her type love. And not having enough ink in my pen to write all the loves type love. And hope that I make her feel as good as she makes me feel and I wanna do with my friends, making fun of me, the way I made fun of them when they went through same kind of love type love. The only difference is, this is one of those real loves type loves. And just like high school, I want to spend hours on the phone without saying shit, and then fall asleep and wake up with her right next to me and smell her all up in my covers type love. I wanna try counting the ways I love her and loose count in the middle just so I would have to start all over again. I want to celebrate those one month anniversary’s even though they aren't really anniversary’s, but doing it just because it makes her happy type love.

Check this, I wanna fall in love with the melody the phone plays when her number is dialed in to her type love, and talk to you until I loose my breathe, she leaves me breathless, but with the expanding of my lungs, inhale all of her back into me. I want a love that makes me change my cell phone calling plan to something that allows me to talk to you longer, cause in all honesty, I want to avoid one of those high cell phone bill type loves. I want a love that makes me regret how small my hands are, I mean the lines on my palm don't give me enough time to love as long as I'd like to type love. Wanna love that makes me stu-stu-stu-stutter just thinking about how strong this love is type love. I want a love that makes me cut off all my hair. Well, maybe not all my hair, maybe like I'll cut the split ends and trim my mustache, but it will still be a symbol of how strong my love is for her.

I kind of feel comfortable now, I'll even be fantasizing about walking out in a green light, just dieing to get hit by a car, just so I could loose my memory, get transported to some third world country just to get treated and some how meet up with you again, so I could fall in love in a different language and see if it still feels the same type love. I want a love that is unexplainable as she is....

I came accross a few things that you shouldn't say to a disabled person. I found it pretty funny cause it happens to me all the time! LOL.

1. "It's OK, I know how to deal with you. I've worked with the disabled
2. "Is your partner disabled too?"
3. "So, What's up with you?"
4. "If I became disabled, I think I'd kill myself."
5. "I saw this great thing on TV that could help you..."
6. "There's a disabled woman that lives down my street. I see her going past sometimes."
7. "Wait here..."
8. "It must be nice to get out and about."
9. "I think you're really brave."
10. "I really admire you."

So I haven't posted in a while cause I've been really busy. Nothing special, but with life in general. Good news is that my custom lights are finally coming in and it should be here by Friday. Their schedule to be installed on Monday and I'm pretty stoked! My Jun mirrors also came in last month as well and they really make the car stand out. I'm having another photo shoot with Stephen (SH Studios) on the 19th along with a white 2009 R1. He did an awesome job on my first shoot, so I had to use him again. I'll be sure to post up pics in the gallery once I'm done.

My car is also entered in theMach V Mega Colossal Meet & Charity Car Show IV on August first and I'm expecting to do well. It's not a huge car show, but it's for charity, so what can I say. Oh, if you're wondering what the lights are going to look like, check out the youtube video below. It should set my car apart from all the other Evo's in the area. Peace!

Just a reminder to all you fine, fine folks out on the Interverse -- Engadget is going to be live and direct from Apple's WWDC keynote tomorrow morning. You should tune in, we hear there may be some kind of new phone announced.

Monday (June 8th) plant yourselves at this page. Here's what time you'll want to do said planting:

07:00AM - Hawaii
10:00AM - Pacific
11:00AM - Mountain
12:00PM - Central
01:00PM - Eastern
06:00PM - London
07:00PM - Paris
02:00AM - Tokyo (June 9th)

I placed an order for some carbon fiber mirrors by Jun and custom headlights by CinCity Designs and neither of them are hear yet. I knew what I was getting myself into when I ordered the mirrors because they are a custom order, but the head lights are a different story. I opted for their core exchange program, where I would pay for the lights + deposit. They would then send me a completed set and I would send back my stockers and get my deposit back. Sounded like a good plan at the time and I was expecting the new set of lights in a few weeks, but things kept coming up. Things like the core sets from other people arrived broken or something went wrong with their shipment of projectors and they had to re-order. Don't get me wrong, they are a great bunch of people and the quality of their work is top notch, but I wish they would get their act together and send me my lights. I would hate to have to cancel my order, such a waste./end rant

On a happier note, I found out that my mirrors left Japan a couple days ago and should be stateside by next week. I also picked up a bottle of gran patron platinum tequila for my birthday. I've had other types of patron before, but never the platinum. It better be worth it as it's $200 a bottle.